i don't believe i said that to you, either.

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 23:09:27 GMT

Funny. Most of the time, I wake up and find myself ineffably happy, excited, anxious.. pretty much overcome with a million wonderful feelings. I wake up every day and have about 500 different reasons to smile, so I do.

There are days, though, that come around once in a great while where I feel completely empty and there's nothing, absolutely NOTHING, that can fill it. I walk around all day in a daze, sort of feeling like there is a thick film over my ears and eyes and I don't take anything in and nothing I say has any effort or feeling or enthusiasm in it. When one of those weird days rolls around, I'd rather just sleep all day and have it be tomorrow.

Today is definitely one of those days. And the only thing that comforts me is knowing everyone has them once in a while and tomorrow will be better.

I'm drained, but all I can say is that I'm happy just to be breathing.

Rest in peace, Alexis. I miss you.

Mon, 10 Sep 2007 04:06:30 GMT

I needed to start over, so I am.

lookin' back, she just laughs.

i don't believe i said that to you, either.