urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:livin_easyylookin' back, she just laughs.livin_easyylivin_easyy2007-09-12T23:09:27Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:livin_easyy:1144i don't believe i said that to you, either.2007-09-12T23:09:27Z2007-09-12T23:09:27ZFunny. Most of the time, I wake up and find myself ineffably happy, excited, anxious.. pretty much overcome with a million wonderful feelings. I wake up every day and have about 500 different reasons to smile, so I do.<br /><br />There are days, though, that come around once in a great while where I feel completely empty and there's nothing, absolutely NOTHING, that can fill it. I walk around all day in a daze, sort of feeling like there is a thick film over my ears and eyes and I don't take anything in and nothing I say has any effort or feeling or enthusiasm in it. When one of those weird days rolls around, I'd rather just sleep all day and have it be tomorrow. <br /><br />Today is definitely one of those days. And the only thing that comforts me is knowing everyone has them once in a while and tomorrow will be better.<br /><br />I'm drained, but all I can say is that I'm happy just to be breathing.<br /><br /><br />Rest in peace, Alexis. I miss you.urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:livin_easyy:659livin_easyy @ 2007-09-10T00:02:002007-09-10T04:06:30Z2007-09-10T04:06:30Z I needed to start over, so I am.